What is left

 Hi there...

I just listened to Oprah super Sunday a full show that gathered a view of people talking about death, what can we learn from that moment, what is it left us and it is so funny that I'm so busy crying I don't even take any note.    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HPmyMmPil0g 

One of my experiences is I had a close friend who died at a young age not long ago and it taught me a lot of something, after his death I felt like we were nothing but what we did, what we said, what we left in others nothing else. Not a single thing. I learned that nothing is important rather than the love that we have, love in the people we care about. Nothing. The things that we care so much, that we do anything for, is nothing. We won't even think about it when we're sick or gone. We don't bring anything with us. So that hit me so much. And after that I always learned how not to be so attached with things, giving, how to always be kind to another, be loving. 

That's what I think I learned, then came a time when my dad died and I felt like I'm so desperate and I don't care about anything, I just care about my mom, and in this case is so far away from me , because I'm married and living abroad. I blame me, because I'm so far away and I couldn't be there when my father died and cannot even be there to comfort my mother. So... yeah. That's how I felt for a few months and almost broke my marriage. I don't know that it was me who was so broken, I couldn't even see the love from anyone. Well they did love me truly, maybe I just wasn't there, because I'm full of resentment. 

Until I'm so sick of myself, and clearly asking God what is it on me. What is the thing that you want to show me. You know what I did always pray after that but it took a little bit longer until I could come back to myself. And slowly starting to forgive myself, by talking with my mom and my friend about how I feel, and let myself be in the grieving moment for a while. Then all I could see was just love. Whatever he did and however the way he went, it just is. That his journey in this physical world is over, but I believe he lives forever in me. 

Teaches me that every single person will die, no matter how much we love them. We too will die. everyone. So we can live our lives the best way that we can, do good things, love ourselves, love the people around us, and just love. Because we are not here forever, will not bring anything with us. We will leave nothing here but the kindness that is felt in our loved ones. I know sometimes we take it as a guarantee that we can all be here again tomorrow, so maybe tomorrow we can apologize or make the call or whatever. But we never know the time. So let's just be kind... and wish and do the best we can, maybe not every single minute we can all be kind and positive because we are still alive, things will come to us. But you know just our best... whatever that means... 

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