Observe

 Hi there...

Its weeknd today, its amusing i don't know why i keep writing. I learn a lot I think these days, I'm affraid if I don't put it directly it will quickly go through me like all these years I always study but I feel I learn much more these days. And I tried to try it directly, apply what I just learned. I feel like I want to make the time. I want to see what is the thing that I learned. Kinda like that. Haha... Alright, let's go to the title 'Observe'.

I don't know when I learned these exactly, just everything came together when I heard Eckhart Tole talk in some of his videos on youtube, I read his book too btw, just a little bit different heard him talk, like so... calm, and peaceful, and makes me want to listen more. He opened his mouth talking with a question view and it felt like it was my question and so on. "funny he said every question goes to the same answer just the way to explain is different, and every question is the same question just a different story."

 If we have a situation or circumstances that we don't like but we cannot do anything about it what can we do? I think this question is representative of all of us. We've all been there, don't know what to do. He said there are two options; First we can remove ourselves (from the situation or people) or second we can surrender (accept as it is) And finally he said, we can suffer. And without us knowing or not, I think most of us go with the last option. We don't like the situation that we are in and we know we cannot do anything about it, we try but we can't read use is not in our control, so we get upset and complain and sometimes angry or so much more, or the least maybe the only thing that we can do is to complain. 

Complaining mentally or talking to other people is another way to suffer. But sometimes people just do that, they feel some kind of relief feelings or even feel something strong going on, here's the ego talking that what they think is right, and if this is happening we go to please the wrong side of ourselves. So what can we do if we feel so upset about something. We need to step back, and observe, the feeling the thinking, the story that is happening in our mind, and accept that we are angry. Yes...and??? and that's it. Beacuse if we let our mouth do the talking, our mind will take over everything, the ego wins and normally we are keep going around to say the same stuff. 

Another way is to be present, see the things outside us and what our feelings are. I know it's kinda hard to even read it, then absolutely harder to apply. But just the day before I learned this, I went outside with my husband we needed to buy groceries, and on our way back I saw a lot of people out side looking like having a great time, and I just felt so bored and felt why is my life is so mundane, and since I am only my husband next to me, I almost want to blame him for what I feel. But I chose to stay quite and calm, and at home I was still quite, he talked about something I just listened and answered, I don't tell my feelings or directly upset like I used to, so I decided to just learn and do my own thing... and I talked with myself what is it that I'm so upset about, that my husband don't think about me or what... and while doing that I couldn't find a nice answer. Then I feel how foolish I'd be if I continued to just feed my ego, and I don't think about the other side, when I realize that he is tired already and he is doing everything for me. What is that I'm thinking.

That I'm so relieved, and I think we need to noticed here that we need to be aware of how we feel, and just see as what it is, and accept it. And without us knowing it the feeling is gone. Is not like we deny the feeling, Is litterally admit the feeling but not attach to it. Not letting our thinking take over our mind. And if we can do that to something outside of us too that would be wonderful. I'm not there yet... But I'm learning :)